Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Dear Brayden

Dearest Brayden,

It seems that ever since you were born, seven years ago today, I have always been running to catch up. Today I thought that maybe it would be a nice change of pace to slow down and steal a few quiet moments to tell you how much I love and how so very proud of you I am.

There are times that I look at you and it literally takes my breath away. You are such an extraordinary young man, so very full of courage and heart. You work hard and you play hard and you have always embraced the challenge and joy life has brought to your plate.

Never lose your passion for knowledge it nourishes your spirit and keeps you safe from the inevitable weight of life. Never lose your ability to savor joy in every moment, no matter how small, because this will keep you optimistic when times become challenging.

You are my pride and my joy and I know that you are your father’s as well. But we are not perfect parents. I'm sorry for the troubles that my life and my choices have and will surely continue to place on your shoulders. With deep humility I ask that you not let these troubles make you bitter or hard, rather open your heart so that within the pain you feel and see every day, you grow in compassion and strength. Never will I do something to intentionally cause you pain, and although I am your mother I am human and will continue to make mistakes.

But know that your smiles help me stay afloat and your tears break my heart. I stay grounded simply because of you, and because of the overwhelming love and joy that being a mother has provided with me with.

As you continue to mature and grow, don’t ignore any aspect of who you are. Your spirituality is just as important as your physical strength. Your compassion is just as important as your intellect. Life is so short, don't ever stop growing, in every sense of the word.

Brayden, I love you so much. Your loving nature, your worry about others, your inquisitive questions, your tears, your smiles. You have taught me how to love really love and appreciate every gasp I take in this sea of motherhood and life. Happy 7th birthday.

I love you and am so proud of you, each and every day my love and pride for you grows.

Forever yours,


AlyGatr said...

Aw, Momma, what a beautiful letter to your little mam :) Did you have to make me cry so early in the day???? The greatest thing about our little ones (or maybe not so little anymore) is I bet they remember all of the good we do for them more than the things we didn't do so well. Happy Birthday Brayden!!

Whimsical Creations said...

Beautiful post! Happy Birthday to your little boy.